The Richness of the Fall

What if this journey you are on started for a different reason to what you originally thought it was all about? How does that make you feel? Confused? Lost? Frustrated? When it began, why did you feel that you had to give it a "label" or confirm it's end point? As human's, we are comfortable knowing what is coming. Could that be why you felt that need? A response from the subconscious to avoid the discomfort uncertainty can bring.

Has your journey derailed so much so, that you no longer know where it is taking you? Do you care? Or are you so entangled in its unfolding you that no longer have the energy and are in a time of surrender. Does this feel like the "real" void? But what was the last one? Is this a continuation to the emptiness that never really ended? A tender space that cannot be hurried through to ease the discomfort you may be feeling.

Maybe your journey had to derail you as it was the only way to break you open. To take away any distractions so that you are only left with yourself. Can you find gratitude for this space, the emptiness? Do you feel the soul has tricked the human by using the original path you thought you were on, as it knew that was the only way you would fully submit to the descent?

This has become so much more than "following your calling". This is the quest to find the You that is buried beneath all the layers of trauma, loss, hurt you have carried for such a long time. Who is there, when that is all released? The protective armour you wear. To keep you safe. Who could you become if you let that all fall away?

You keep searching. You keep searching. Your life is a ceremony. You are holding on to so much judgement. The old wounds that keep resurfacing time after time. Begging for your attention so that they may be sent into the light with love. Not a patch up. Healing. Let go of all your expectations. Remove the "deadline". Say "yes" to it all and through it all.

You must wallow in the underground darkness to discover your light. Push on those raw edges to feel everything. The good, the bad and the unbearable. Surrender. Give yourself the space for your rebirth to incarnate.

Listen to the whispers of your intuition. Ask your soul to guide you. Can you find gratitude for the no-thingness? Do you feel that you are a "spare part" in this scene? I can assure you that a spare part is the most treasured find just at the right time. Allow yourself to feel. Let it all bubble up to the surface. It demands witness. Love. To be held and know it is safe to release.

The beautiful little girl hiding deep inside of you. She does not need you to carry the protective armour for her anymore. It is getting too heavy. You start, then you are halted by the enormity of the weight. No big words, announcements, explanation or justification are needed. Quietly allow the unravelling to begin to free her. Do you feel how scared she is to be seen. She is waiting to feel safe enough to come out.

What if that is why this journey began?